I'll - try to make sure you have the choice, Hyunki. You deserve that.
[ okay, the words caused a thousand butterflies to erupt in his stomach and he looked downright in awe. emotions were running all through his eyes and he poured them out through the kiss and holding on a little tighter.
he needed hyunki and it didn't scare him as much as he thought it might. but it did make his heart race faster and his eyes glass over just a little. ]
[ Again, there was a lot Hyunki could have said, here. A lot he did want to say, about Adder wanting to protect him, about his willingness to keep Hyunki away from what he didn't want to face. It meant a lot to Hyunki, and he poured it into the kiss, his hands framing Adder's face, his mouth opening for him, his legs squeezing a little tighter around Adder's waist.
When he pulled away, he brushed his thumbs along Adder's cheekbones, just looking at him for a moment. ]
[ the kiss spoke of plenty and adder stored all of it inside of his heart, just in case. he would likely think of each moment as the last until he grew more confident and reassure hyunki would keep wanting him. that hyunki would keep reaching for him.
when the kiss ended, his eyes opened slower, lips slightly parted.
the question just so happened to be a loaded one even if hyunki would not know it. ]
I - it is unfair to think it. Too many rely and depend on me. I have too much to keep in balance and a responsbility. Even just wishing freedom from it for a single second is unfair of me.
[ Adder carried the world on his shoulders. Or, actually, the underworld. And it was a heavy burden, it was obvious. Hyunki wished he could help, could offer him some reprieve from the responsibilities, from the constant weight that made his frame droop forward a tiny bit.
But he knew that asking him to give it up, even for a moment, to be selfish, wouldn't be something that Adder would even consider. And it was another reason to respect him, really.
Still, Hyunki;s fingers went back to Adder's hair, his eyes following the movement as he spoke. ]
Am I taking you away from your responsibilities? I don't want you to feel guilt for spending time with me.
[ more soft noises from the fingers in his hair. something he enjoyed far more than he would have ever considered. then again, he could say the same for the entire bond with hyunki. he liked so many things he never dared to think about. to dream about.
his eyes shut for a moment, and he let out a small huff. ]
No. I don't really have as many responsibilities now with the - way the world is. Things are in a turmoil with the realms at war. I - things happened. It is still -
[ his eyes opened slowly and he decided to confine in hyunki. ]
[ Everything was so peaceful around them. The water, cascading down, moving gently around them as they held each other, pressed close in the middle of a rain forest, in the Underworld.
How amazing. And how amazing was Adder, too, with each passing day becoming more and more like Hyunki's moonflower, opening up, offering bits of pieces of himself that Hyunki cradled to his heart, hoarding as he did so many secrets. ]
Off? Has it not been working the way it usually does?
[ His touch grew ever softer, as he listened intently. ] Are you worried about it?
[ the tranquility of the moment settled over him, a warmth not from his own inner flames but from the emotions hyunki invoked deep within him. the irony on how hyunki restored his own sense of humanity within him. ]
It hasn't and some things I usually can do - I can't do at all.
[ his hand slid up and down hyunki's back as he thought about it. ]
I'm kind of worried about it but I'm sure it's just from the realm war. It isn't over yet and it might be what keeps interfering with me. I might still be linked in.
[ his lips twitched. ] I share things with you so easily. I never - you make me feel - and don't laugh - okay, no, you can laugh - you make me feel grounded.
[ To Hyunki, Adder was incredibly human. He had ups and downs and softness and darkness, and he had fears and worries and things that made him happy. He was feeling, and that was so human. ]
I'm sorry. You should meditate with me, it might help.
[ Hyunki kept on touching Adder, his hair, his face, his shoulders, his neck and back up. He shook his head at the idea of laughing. ]
It's not funny. I feel it too. When I'm with you, I don't feel scared, and I've been very scared, lately. So, I understand. And I'm glad to be making you feel good, in any way. You deserve it. I can't quite give it to you, even though I wish I could, but you deserve the world.
You think meditating might help me? I've never really tried that before. [ adder replied with his eyes falling shut again. one of the biggest shows of trust, the same as falling asleep around hyunki because it left him vulnerable and without his usual defenses all around him.
but hyunki made him feel safe too and he never expected it for a second. for a single moment.
his hands continued to move over any inch of him he could reach from their current positions. ]
It means a lot to me I make you feel safe. I've - that's new to hear. [ his eyes opened to look at hyunki, his heart clenching. ] You do - you have. You've given me things I couldn't have imagined ever having. You - it means everything, Hyunki.
I still don't understand how anyone feels scared of you, you know? It makes no sense to me. Well, in a way, it does, because I understand that death is scary to some people. But you've only felt safe to me.
[ Hyunki wanted to kiss Adder again, but he was almost worried that he would be unable to keep himself from wanting more, and he didn't want to think about that yet, not when they had not talked about it. So he refrained, just smiling as he kept touching Adder, unable to stop. ]
I can teach you how to meditate, yes. It's not difficult, and it might help you center yourself. Find your powers back.
[ from really early on, adder picked up on how differently hyunki saw him, putting together what no one else had. in ways which even changed how he saw himself. a slow process, of course, and something he wanted to do for hyunki in return.
he wanted to give hyunki everything, something else new for him. another new level to his natural protective air. hyunki rose it to a whole new arena and he only wanted things to continue to heighten.
running his hands along hyunki's cheeks, his heart squeezed again at the realizations rushing through his veins. ]
I think you see me differently, Hyunki. Maybe I'm - more myself with you. [ probably ridiculously cheesy but he meant the words with all of his being. hyunki awakened so much within him. ]
I'd like that. You - look so peaceful when you do it. [ slowly, he tried to swish and turn them around in the water in a circle. ]
[ Looking straight into Adder's eyes, Hyunki smiled, his heart feeling much too big for his chest, like it had grown three sizes since meeting Adder. It might have, and soon it would not fit his small body anymore. ]
That's good. You shouldn't hide who you are. You're so beautiful, and interesting, and smart. You have much to say, and to show, and I shouldn't be the only one to witness it.
[ He paused, looking around as Adder moved them. ] Not that I don't feel incredibly privileged to get to see you. But I'd love for you to realize how beautiful you truly are, yourself.
[ His words were utterly sincere, if extremely cheesy, too. At least, they complimented each other in this way. ]
Okay. We can start easy. I'll teach you my tricks.
his heart swelled from the description and he ducked his head a little as if to hide the blush. a kind of impossible feat with how close they were to one another but he didn't stop him from trying, thank you very much!
the words just meant a lot to him and he enjoyed the way hyunki saw him. so much more than anyone else, at least to the best of his knowledge. ]
I'm - trying to, I think I'm starting to. [ adder confessed, slowly raising his head to look into hyunki's eyes again. ] If someone like you can see something in me, I must not be all that bad.
[ more cheesy to add to the mix! ] You know I feel the same about you, right? You - I've met and encountered millions but you're rare, Hyunki. You're - I'm glad I got to meet you.
Your tricks huh? I look forward to learning all of them. [ a very vague innuendo. ]
[ At seeing that slight blush, the mild embarrassment, Hyunki had to grin, running his fingers through Adder's hair again. He had to hope that one day, Adder would be proud of himself, of what and who he was, not just death, but so much more than. So much more. ]
You're far from being all that bad. You've never been. I know we've only known each other for a very short amount of time, especially for you, but, I have a sense for these things, and you? You are so good.
[ Rare? He did not feel rare. But he liked it. He really did.
And sorry, Adder, but for now? He has no dirty tricks! Yet. ]
[ huh, something else new there given the praise had him flushing, a bubbling burst of happiness welling up inside of him. then again, no one ever really praised him for anything, probably most were afraid to. as if it might take it wrong or something of the sort. ]
You're good too. So good, Hyunki. [ he gave a nod of his head. ] We're very lucky. This doesn't happen everyday, you know. This - us - what we feel. It's also rare and is what others tend to fight for, either to get or to keep.
[ Wars were waged over such feelings. Helen of Troy came to Hyunki's mind, even if he would never pretend to be that kind of beautiful, or special. But it was the kind of thing Adder was talking about. ]
Let's cherish it, then. I want to, anyway. Like this garden, we can help it bloom.
[ He made a soft noise. ]
Much as I dislike the idea, we should probably get out of the water. We're going to be turning into prunes soon.
That's kind of a beautiful metaphor, moonlight. [ nicknames were usually rare on adder's end, at least, overly affectionate ones but he could anticipate so many in store for hyunki. but he deserved every bit of the romance, especially what others might consider cliche given he never experienced it before.
as for the water, he pouted but nodded his head. ] We probably should. [ still pouting, he started drifting them over to the bank so they could get out. he made sure to get out first so he could help hyunki up. when they were both back on the back, he flicked his wrist to dry them both off and return their clothes to their hands. adder pulled his on slowly, unable to take his eyes of hyunki. ]
Do you want to see more of this place or do you want to go home?
[ squeezing hyunki's hand, he gave a nod of his head. hearing the trees would be an experience and he wanted to share everything with hyunki. being apart of his world and his abilities meant a lot to him. more than it probably should have already but he wouldn't question it.
not much anyway. ]
I'd love that. I hope - the ones here like me. [ curling into hyunki's body, he let him lead them over to whichever trees he wanted to chat with. ]
The trees topside like you. Because you're good to them. And to me.
[ Hyunki marched the two of them over to a great oak - his favorite, the kind of tree he descended from himself. It was huge, and obviously old, and beautiful. It made Hyunki smile, to come up to it, and he placed Adder's hand on the trunk, following with his own on top. His skin glowed a deeper green as he focused his energy.
And then the floodgates opened, and the tree's voice surged through him - through both of them, greeting them with its deep, unfathomable rumble. ]
You can speak aloud, or just think whatever. They'll hear both.
[ any little bit of magic always pulled every single ounce of adder's attention and focus. he loved to learn things, of course, but more than that he loved magic. he loved how different things could shift and change into something else.
hyunki using magic, though? one of the hottest things he had ever seen. gulping, he hoped to anything the tree couldn't pick up on a rush of desire. ]
Hello there, I've never actually talked to a tree but Hyunki is very fond of all of you and - I hope you enjoy it down here. I know it's different than what you would have topside. If you could help protect Hyunki, I'd be grateful.
[ Hyunki's face broke into a grin as Adder speak to the tree; hearing it reply with its almost gargling tones, approving of the immense garden Adder had made for them, made something warm and happy settle in Hyunki's heart. He did not worry that the trees were unhappy here, but he understood why Adder would. ]
All trees always protect me, as I protect them. One day, I'll show you how I can look exactly like he does.
[ The tree rumbled out a laugh at Hyunki's words, because no, no he could not; he was way too young, way too green. But they both knew that Hyunki, in a tree form, could be pretty impressive all the same. He looked back at Adder. ]
[ talking to a tree, oh what turns and twists his existence took. the actual speaking of the tree surprised him a little, the very same with the laugh. who knew trees could laugh and have a sense of humor?
then again, he had started to fall for a tree. practically a tree anyway. ]
You can look like an actual tree? [ his eyes moved over hyunki with a twitch of his lips. ] No offense, love, but you would be a sapling. [ if hyunki stayed his current height in tree form, of course. ]
Do I like talking to the trees? I do. I like sharing this with you. It makes me feel closer to you.
Okay, mister oak tree, one more question - how do you know what is destined to be is actually destined?
[ Trees were very funny, and it was a shame that only such a small number of people could know this for a fact. But Hyunki would continue to spread this knowledge, and help others witness it, and witness trees in all of their glory.
Hyunki gasped, then chuckled, at Adder's words, reaching out with his free hand to punch his shoulder, very lightly. ]
I'll show you. We'll see what you think, then.
[ Hyunki could keep his current height, if he so wished, but he could also grow tall, tall, very tall. Adder might even be a little impressed.
He smiled a lot softer at Adder's next words, swaying close as he nodded. It made him feel closer to Adder, too, in unexpected ways.
At Adder's question, the tree rumbled, like a deep hum, making Hyunki feel very deeply anchored to the Earth.
It is written. In the stars, in the earth, in the ebb and flow of waves, in the wind and the rain and the sun. The paths are drawn, and you are on one. You are wise. You already know.]
[ now, adder understood where some of the sass on hyunki's end came from. raised from trees! honestly! his lips twitched and he gave a nod of his head. yes, he knew of the current path, a kind of hazy glow of what could be. while he could not divine the future as an oracle could, he did have glimpses of what could come to past. time happened to be not as linear as mortals believed it to be.
pressing more against hyunki, he shut his eyes for a moment, trying to feel as he felt with the trees, with the earth pulsing around them. it buzzed within him, a more settled warmth than what his magic tended to be. ]
I have only recently started to believe in actual fixed destinies. Of being in the specific place at the specific time. Of needing and receiving just what that might be.
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Date: 2018-09-17 07:58 pm (UTC)[ okay, the words caused a thousand butterflies to erupt in his stomach and he looked downright in awe. emotions were running all through his eyes and he poured them out through the kiss and holding on a little tighter.
he needed hyunki and it didn't scare him as much as he thought it might. but it did make his heart race faster and his eyes glass over just a little. ]
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Date: 2018-09-17 08:48 pm (UTC)When he pulled away, he brushed his thumbs along Adder's cheekbones, just looking at him for a moment. ]
Is there anything you want to be free from?
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Date: 2018-09-18 12:07 am (UTC)when the kiss ended, his eyes opened slower, lips slightly parted.
the question just so happened to be a loaded one even if hyunki would not know it. ]
I - it is unfair to think it. Too many rely and depend on me. I have too much to keep in balance and a responsbility. Even just wishing freedom from it for a single second is unfair of me.
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Date: 2018-09-18 12:29 am (UTC)But he knew that asking him to give it up, even for a moment, to be selfish, wouldn't be something that Adder would even consider. And it was another reason to respect him, really.
Still, Hyunki;s fingers went back to Adder's hair, his eyes following the movement as he spoke. ]
Am I taking you away from your responsibilities? I don't want you to feel guilt for spending time with me.
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Date: 2018-09-18 01:02 am (UTC)his eyes shut for a moment, and he let out a small huff. ]
No. I don't really have as many responsibilities now with the - way the world is. Things are in a turmoil with the realms at war. I - things happened. It is still -
[ his eyes opened slowly and he decided to confine in hyunki. ]
My magic has been - off.
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Date: 2018-09-18 01:13 am (UTC)How amazing. And how amazing was Adder, too, with each passing day becoming more and more like Hyunki's moonflower, opening up, offering bits of pieces of himself that Hyunki cradled to his heart, hoarding as he did so many secrets. ]
Off? Has it not been working the way it usually does?
[ His touch grew ever softer, as he listened intently. ] Are you worried about it?
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Date: 2018-09-18 03:15 am (UTC)It hasn't and some things I usually can do - I can't do at all.
[ his hand slid up and down hyunki's back as he thought about it. ]
I'm kind of worried about it but I'm sure it's just from the realm war. It isn't over yet and it might be what keeps interfering with me. I might still be linked in.
[ his lips twitched. ] I share things with you so easily. I never - you make me feel - and don't laugh - okay, no, you can laugh - you make me feel grounded.
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Date: 2018-09-18 01:26 pm (UTC)I'm sorry. You should meditate with me, it might help.
[ Hyunki kept on touching Adder, his hair, his face, his shoulders, his neck and back up. He shook his head at the idea of laughing. ]
It's not funny. I feel it too. When I'm with you, I don't feel scared, and I've been very scared, lately. So, I understand. And I'm glad to be making you feel good, in any way. You deserve it. I can't quite give it to you, even though I wish I could, but you deserve the world.
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Date: 2018-09-18 07:46 pm (UTC)but hyunki made him feel safe too and he never expected it for a second. for a single moment.
his hands continued to move over any inch of him he could reach from their current positions. ]
It means a lot to me I make you feel safe. I've - that's new to hear. [ his eyes opened to look at hyunki, his heart clenching. ] You do - you have. You've given me things I couldn't have imagined ever having. You - it means everything, Hyunki.
Can - you show me how?
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Date: 2018-09-18 08:05 pm (UTC)[ Hyunki wanted to kiss Adder again, but he was almost worried that he would be unable to keep himself from wanting more, and he didn't want to think about that yet, not when they had not talked about it. So he refrained, just smiling as he kept touching Adder, unable to stop. ]
I can teach you how to meditate, yes. It's not difficult, and it might help you center yourself. Find your powers back.
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Date: 2018-09-20 12:16 am (UTC)he wanted to give hyunki everything, something else new for him. another new level to his natural protective air. hyunki rose it to a whole new arena and he only wanted things to continue to heighten.
running his hands along hyunki's cheeks, his heart squeezed again at the realizations rushing through his veins. ]
I think you see me differently, Hyunki. Maybe I'm - more myself with you. [ probably ridiculously cheesy but he meant the words with all of his being. hyunki awakened so much within him. ]
I'd like that. You - look so peaceful when you do it. [ slowly, he tried to swish and turn them around in the water in a circle. ]
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Date: 2018-09-20 09:33 am (UTC)That's good. You shouldn't hide who you are. You're so beautiful, and interesting, and smart. You have much to say, and to show, and I shouldn't be the only one to witness it.
[ He paused, looking around as Adder moved them. ] Not that I don't feel incredibly privileged to get to see you. But I'd love for you to realize how beautiful you truly are, yourself.
[ His words were utterly sincere, if extremely cheesy, too. At least, they complimented each other in this way. ]
Okay. We can start easy. I'll teach you my tricks.
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Date: 2018-09-20 06:22 pm (UTC)his heart swelled from the description and he ducked his head a little as if to hide the blush. a kind of impossible feat with how close they were to one another but he didn't stop him from trying, thank you very much!
the words just meant a lot to him and he enjoyed the way hyunki saw him. so much more than anyone else, at least to the best of his knowledge. ]
I'm - trying to, I think I'm starting to. [ adder confessed, slowly raising his head to look into hyunki's eyes again. ] If someone like you can see something in me, I must not be all that bad.
[ more cheesy to add to the mix! ] You know I feel the same about you, right? You - I've met and encountered millions but you're rare, Hyunki. You're - I'm glad I got to meet you.
Your tricks huh? I look forward to learning all of them. [ a very vague innuendo. ]
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Date: 2018-09-20 07:29 pm (UTC)You're far from being all that bad. You've never been. I know we've only known each other for a very short amount of time, especially for you, but, I have a sense for these things, and you? You are so good.
[ Rare? He did not feel rare. But he liked it. He really did.
And sorry, Adder, but for now? He has no dirty tricks! Yet. ]
We got lucky, to meet each other.
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Date: 2018-09-20 10:35 pm (UTC)You're good too. So good, Hyunki. [ he gave a nod of his head. ] We're very lucky. This doesn't happen everyday, you know. This - us - what we feel. It's also rare and is what others tend to fight for, either to get or to keep.
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Date: 2018-09-20 10:52 pm (UTC)Let's cherish it, then. I want to, anyway. Like this garden, we can help it bloom.
[ He made a soft noise. ]
Much as I dislike the idea, we should probably get out of the water. We're going to be turning into prunes soon.
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Date: 2018-09-20 11:19 pm (UTC)as for the water, he pouted but nodded his head. ] We probably should. [ still pouting, he started drifting them over to the bank so they could get out. he made sure to get out first so he could help hyunki up. when they were both back on the back, he flicked his wrist to dry them both off and return their clothes to their hands. adder pulled his on slowly, unable to take his eyes of hyunki. ]
Do you want to see more of this place or do you want to go home?
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Date: 2018-09-20 11:30 pm (UTC)After getting dressed again, trying very hard not to stare at Adder but failing quite spectacularly, Hyunki grinned, taking Adder's hand. ]
There's more to see! We have to properly greet the Trees. Do you want to hear them talk?
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Date: 2018-09-20 11:53 pm (UTC)not much anyway. ]
I'd love that. I hope - the ones here like me. [ curling into hyunki's body, he let him lead them over to whichever trees he wanted to chat with. ]
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Date: 2018-09-21 12:09 am (UTC)[ Hyunki marched the two of them over to a great oak - his favorite, the kind of tree he descended from himself. It was huge, and obviously old, and beautiful. It made Hyunki smile, to come up to it, and he placed Adder's hand on the trunk, following with his own on top. His skin glowed a deeper green as he focused his energy.
And then the floodgates opened, and the tree's voice surged through him - through both of them, greeting them with its deep, unfathomable rumble. ]
You can speak aloud, or just think whatever. They'll hear both.
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Date: 2018-09-21 01:00 am (UTC)hyunki using magic, though? one of the hottest things he had ever seen. gulping, he hoped to anything the tree couldn't pick up on a rush of desire. ]
Hello there, I've never actually talked to a tree but Hyunki is very fond of all of you and - I hope you enjoy it down here. I know it's different than what you would have topside. If you could help protect Hyunki, I'd be grateful.
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Date: 2018-09-21 01:13 am (UTC)All trees always protect me, as I protect them. One day, I'll show you how I can look exactly like he does.
[ The tree rumbled out a laugh at Hyunki's words, because no, no he could not; he was way too young, way too green. But they both knew that Hyunki, in a tree form, could be pretty impressive all the same. He looked back at Adder. ]
Do you like it?
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Date: 2018-09-21 05:20 am (UTC)then again, he had started to fall for a tree. practically a tree anyway. ]
You can look like an actual tree? [ his eyes moved over hyunki with a twitch of his lips. ] No offense, love, but you would be a sapling. [ if hyunki stayed his current height in tree form, of course. ]
Do I like talking to the trees? I do. I like sharing this with you. It makes me feel closer to you.
Okay, mister oak tree, one more question - how do you know what is destined to be is actually destined?
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Date: 2018-09-21 09:27 am (UTC)Hyunki gasped, then chuckled, at Adder's words, reaching out with his free hand to punch his shoulder, very lightly. ]
I'll show you. We'll see what you think, then.
[ Hyunki could keep his current height, if he so wished, but he could also grow tall, tall, very tall. Adder might even be a little impressed.
He smiled a lot softer at Adder's next words, swaying close as he nodded. It made him feel closer to Adder, too, in unexpected ways.
At Adder's question, the tree rumbled, like a deep hum, making Hyunki feel very deeply anchored to the Earth.
It is written. In the stars, in the earth, in the ebb and flow of waves, in the wind and the rain and the sun. The paths are drawn, and you are on one. You are wise. You already know. ]
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Date: 2018-09-21 07:32 pm (UTC)pressing more against hyunki, he shut his eyes for a moment, trying to feel as he felt with the trees, with the earth pulsing around them. it buzzed within him, a more settled warmth than what his magic tended to be. ]
I have only recently started to believe in actual fixed destinies. Of being in the specific place at the specific time. Of needing and receiving just what that might be.
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