[ Hyunki looked down, before leaning into the touch, nuzzling into it a little. ]
You do make me believe that this - what you see in me - might be true. I've never thought much of a myself before, but. I like the idea of being a lot to you.
I'll spend the rest of time trying to make you believe it. [ adder confessed, the words not sinking in, at least, the implication of them for a second or two. when it did, he tensed a little because they never really discussed it. What if it became too much too soon? Just because they were developing feelings for one another didn't mean hyunki wanted all of existence with only him.
rubbing at this cheek, he quickly added - ] I mean - for as long as you want to be with me - and -
[ Hyunki's heart rate picked up, and he suppressed a shiver, looking down and shuffling to press his forehead to Adder's. ]
The trees always say to live every day as if it's your last, because it could be. We may not know how we'll feel in 10, 50, 100, 500 years from now. But what I do know now is that I don't want to spend any potential last day without you. You've changed everything.
[ time moved very differently for someone like adder but he nodded his head. knowing his own emotions very rarely changed once he set them. another feature he knew not everyone shared in. most likely, a deity thing. ]
You're right. We can focus on now and not the future of what may or may not be.
We can, baby, we can try. [ it worried him a little about being too much for hyunki but he would really work on not being too intense or consuming. a difficult feat given he needed to be in the underworld context. ] I've always been the - plan everything to the last detail kind.
[Baby. The word sent a shiver, feeling absolutely delicious, down Hyunki's spine. ]
There's also nothing wrong with that. But I don't want you to think you have no freedom. I want you to be so - so free. To do whatever it pleases you. Because that matters, too. You can deviate from plans.
[ adder didn't even notice the baby, it just kind of happened naturally. as for the other bits, well, he considered them a lot closer.
freedom. what a foreign concept he knew so little about. usually, there were practical shackles around his ankles keeping him very tied to his duties. ]
You want the same thing? Freedom? Choosing what you want to do? What would be your top three things right now.
[ With a nod, Hyunki considered the question, not wanting to answer too lightly. There were a lot of things he wanted, and that he wanted to choose for himself.
He looked back with a very serious expression, thumb brushing Adder's cheek again. ]
Love. I want to get to choose who I'm with, and the rest be damned. That's the first, and most important thing. I also want to be able to travel, and see the world and learn from it, not be stuck in one place for my whole life, waiting for things to happen to me instead of making them happen myself. And third, I guess, I want to... be relevant, in a way. Matter to the world, do something with my life, and my powers.
[ It mainly had to do with not being stuck living like a tree waiting to be told what to do by his family. Who to marry, where to move, how to act.
[ the answer really spoke a lot about hyunki and adder considered again how special he happened to be. how rare and beautiful. he used to not believe in luck either but he couldn't think of anything else other than that when it came to hyunki. just how lucky he had turned out to be to meet him. ]
All three of those things can happen, Hyunki. You can pick who you want to be with, you're already making a difference and being relevant in that house. The traveling - might be a little more difficult but not impossible. You can have it - you can.
[ It wasn't that Hyunki didn't believe him, or didn't want to believe him. He did, so much. But he'd never heard anyone be as confident about this as Adder was, right now. It felt impossible, and his voice was very small when he spoke. ]
Edited (nevermind i confused my threads all is well) Date: 2018-09-24 06:47 pm (UTC)
[ the comment earned hyunki one of the rarely seen gummy smiles, all lit up and happy. he looked younger when he actually smiled, less burdened and far more human ]
I'll be thankful to everything that brought us together.
[ Hyunki could only grin back, caressing Adder's cheek at that beautiful, beautiful smile. He wanted to see it again, and again, and so many times more. ]
Do you really not mind if I watch you sleep? I can go back to my things and find a book, if you'd rather I didn't.
[ even if not used to touch, adder easily leaned into hyunki's, which spoke more volumes than he probably understood. how much he kept reaching out for hyunki did too. but again, he probably did not know. ]
I don't mind if you watch me sleep, Hyunki. I think - it's amazing you want to. That you - can't look away from me. I - it makes me feel special.
Romantic. [ he murmured, lips twitching at the corners as he shifted around and laid half on top of hyunki, tucking his face against his neck. he liked the way the position allowed them to tangle their legs together and both hold on another.
the stories comment made sense with how much he had lived and experieced. ]
I never lingered too long topside throughout the length of my existence but I have seen a lot. I miss the flapper era. It was really nice.
[ he had a thing for the 20s, 30s and 40s. a kind of otherworldly appeal and more classic than anything of the current era. ]
[ It's easy to imagine Adder in a broad shouldered pinstripe suit, a fedora on his head, a watch chain dangling from his vest pocket.
...Yeah. ]
I can imagine you've seen so much more than me. I think, what you consider 'not lingering too long' is probably still a lot longer than I've ever lived. I'd love to hear all about it.
[ Especially stuff about living in big cities and in the middle of a busy, growing world. Because Hyunki knew a lot, sure, but it mostly pertained to nature. He was so hungry to know more.
He considered the question, his ears growing a little red. ]
I'd like to think you'd want to dream about me. But I also hope you dream of - good things. Beautiful things. Rainforests and laughter and whatever it is that makes you happy, content. I want that for you, and for your dreams.
[ a thin blush stained his cheeks but the images of the past flashed through his mind, one after another. all blurring together into a myriad mess of memories. there were the good and the bad, the ugly and the beautiful, all combining into his life experience above ground. ]
I will gladly tell you all the stories you'd like to hear. I used to love going to jazz clubs, sitting in some dark corner off to the side to not make anytime too unease. You know the prickle you get on the back of your neck? When your hair stands up and you just feel something? [ he paused, eyes closed for a moment. ] That's me - one of mine around.
I'm not sure if I looked good in the suits but I sure did like them. [ in the underworld, he usually wore robes and the like. mortal clothing choices were very different. ]
Hyunki, you are a beautiful thing and what makes me happy - [ he lifted his head to look up at hyunki. ] If I'm having a good dream, it is because of you. [ the bad dreams, the downright horrorific nightmares hadn't happened with hyunki yet, other than during their first meeting with one another. ] You are my dream.
[ He could see it in his head, all in sepia tones and clouded by cigarette smoke, Adder's eyes burning into the back of his head as he danced, maybe. It made him shiver, in a good way. ]
Did you like the music? Is that - something you're particularly into, or was it more the atmosphere? And I can tell you right now, despite never having seen you in one: you looked good in the suits. I know that for a fact.
[ He had to blush at Adder's next words, taken by them, by what they meant. The few times he had to sleep, he'd dreamed of Adder, himself. Meeting Adder's eyes, Hyunki brushed his thumb along his cheek. ] I'll keep the bad dreams away, as long as I can. As much as I can. I promise.
I liked the music a lot. [ adder agreed, mind slipping back in time for a few moments, shifting through all the memories. ] The atmosphere appealed to me and the attitudes. [ far more than the current one even before the war. he much preferred past eras to more modern ones. ]
We could go sometime, you know. There are those in the Underworld that can pull on strings of time.
[ his eyes fell shut and he let out a soft exhale. ] You do keep them away, Hyunki. You actually do ground me.
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Date: 2018-09-22 11:53 am (UTC)You do make me believe that this - what you see in me - might be true. I've never thought much of a myself before, but. I like the idea of being a lot to you.
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Date: 2018-09-22 05:20 pm (UTC)rubbing at this cheek, he quickly added - ] I mean - for as long as you want to be with me - and -
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Date: 2018-09-22 05:49 pm (UTC)The trees always say to live every day as if it's your last, because it could be. We may not know how we'll feel in 10, 50, 100, 500 years from now. But what I do know now is that I don't want to spend any potential last day without you. You've changed everything.
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Date: 2018-09-22 07:13 pm (UTC)You're right. We can focus on now and not the future of what may or may not be.
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Date: 2018-09-22 08:14 pm (UTC)Thank you.
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Date: 2018-09-23 02:01 am (UTC)You're welcome. I'll try to not plan so much. Give more - room for things.
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Date: 2018-09-24 12:52 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-24 12:58 am (UTC)There's also nothing wrong with that. But I don't want you to think you have no freedom. I want you to be so - so free. To do whatever it pleases you. Because that matters, too. You can deviate from plans.
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Date: 2018-09-24 01:03 am (UTC)freedom. what a foreign concept he knew so little about. usually, there were practical shackles around his ankles keeping him very tied to his duties. ]
You want the same thing? Freedom? Choosing what you want to do? What would be your top three things right now.
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Date: 2018-09-24 09:12 am (UTC)He looked back with a very serious expression, thumb brushing Adder's cheek again. ]
Love. I want to get to choose who I'm with, and the rest be damned. That's the first, and most important thing. I also want to be able to travel, and see the world and learn from it, not be stuck in one place for my whole life, waiting for things to happen to me instead of making them happen myself. And third, I guess, I want to... be relevant, in a way. Matter to the world, do something with my life, and my powers.
[ It mainly had to do with not being stuck living like a tree waiting to be told what to do by his family. Who to marry, where to move, how to act.
Not anymore. ]
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Date: 2018-09-24 06:33 pm (UTC)All three of those things can happen, Hyunki. You can pick who you want to be with, you're already making a difference and being relevant in that house. The traveling - might be a little more difficult but not impossible. You can have it - you can.
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Date: 2018-09-24 06:46 pm (UTC)[ It wasn't that Hyunki didn't believe him, or didn't want to believe him. He did, so much. But he'd never heard anyone be as confident about this as Adder was, right now. It felt impossible, and his voice was very small when he spoke. ]
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Date: 2018-09-24 11:26 pm (UTC)[ reaching out, he pressed his palm against hyunki's chest over his heart. ]
Your heart is special, beautiful and it is going to carry you through. Anything you decide, this won't lead you wrong.
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Date: 2018-09-24 11:30 pm (UTC)[ He wasn't sure he agreed that he was meant for greatness. But he could try to be. ]
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Date: 2018-09-25 12:05 am (UTC)I'll be thankful to everything that brought us together.
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Date: 2018-09-25 09:54 am (UTC)Do you really not mind if I watch you sleep? I can go back to my things and find a book, if you'd rather I didn't.
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Date: 2018-09-26 02:57 am (UTC)I don't mind if you watch me sleep, Hyunki. I think - it's amazing you want to. That you - can't look away from me. I - it makes me feel special.
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Date: 2018-09-26 10:26 am (UTC)Your eyes hold more stories than any book I could read. I like to think about what you may be dreaming of while you sleep.
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Date: 2018-09-27 11:15 pm (UTC)the stories comment made sense with how much he had lived and experieced. ]
I never lingered too long topside throughout the length of my existence but I have seen a lot. I miss the flapper era. It was really nice.
[ he had a thing for the 20s, 30s and 40s. a kind of otherworldly appeal and more classic than anything of the current era. ]
What do you think I'm dreaming about?
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Date: 2018-09-28 09:38 am (UTC)[ It's easy to imagine Adder in a broad shouldered pinstripe suit, a fedora on his head, a watch chain dangling from his vest pocket.
...Yeah. ]
I can imagine you've seen so much more than me. I think, what you consider 'not lingering too long' is probably still a lot longer than I've ever lived. I'd love to hear all about it.
[ Especially stuff about living in big cities and in the middle of a busy, growing world. Because Hyunki knew a lot, sure, but it mostly pertained to nature. He was so hungry to know more.
He considered the question, his ears growing a little red. ]
I'd like to think you'd want to dream about me. But I also hope you dream of - good things. Beautiful things. Rainforests and laughter and whatever it is that makes you happy, content. I want that for you, and for your dreams.
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Date: 2018-09-29 04:33 pm (UTC)I will gladly tell you all the stories you'd like to hear. I used to love going to jazz clubs, sitting in some dark corner off to the side to not make anytime too unease. You know the prickle you get on the back of your neck? When your hair stands up and you just feel something? [ he paused, eyes closed for a moment. ] That's me - one of mine around.
I'm not sure if I looked good in the suits but I sure did like them. [ in the underworld, he usually wore robes and the like. mortal clothing choices were very different. ]
Hyunki, you are a beautiful thing and what makes me happy - [ he lifted his head to look up at hyunki. ] If I'm having a good dream, it is because of you. [ the bad dreams, the downright horrorific nightmares hadn't happened with hyunki yet, other than during their first meeting with one another. ] You are my dream.
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Date: 2018-09-29 04:42 pm (UTC)Did you like the music? Is that - something you're particularly into, or was it more the atmosphere? And I can tell you right now, despite never having seen you in one: you looked good in the suits. I know that for a fact.
[ He had to blush at Adder's next words, taken by them, by what they meant. The few times he had to sleep, he'd dreamed of Adder, himself. Meeting Adder's eyes, Hyunki brushed his thumb along his cheek. ] I'll keep the bad dreams away, as long as I can. As much as I can. I promise.
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Date: 2018-09-29 07:19 pm (UTC)We could go sometime, you know. There are those in the Underworld that can pull on strings of time.
[ his eyes fell shut and he let out a soft exhale. ] You do keep them away, Hyunki. You actually do ground me.
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Date: 2018-09-29 08:36 pm (UTC)[ That seemed impossible. But also so, so exciting, and his face showed it. ]
That's incredible.
[ Hyunki kept carding his fingers softly through Adder's hair, letting him relax. ] Then go to sleep, Adder. I'm here.
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