It could. I don't really try to listen in when he's out a lot, but I know I can.
[ It's just a skill he's picked up over the years, whether he's tried to do so or not. Some things are just that way, huh? Probably much like Hyunki's power has no doubt become second nature to him in a lot of ways.
Strange, because Dal doesn't actually have a lot of experience with his own abilities. ]
Yes. It's like that. You know things are right, even though you can't always put it into words.
And sometimes you can put it into words and it's... amazing. [ Dal gestures vaguely, because he's talking about being eloquent about his feelings, but it's hard to do that spontaneously.
Hyunki will just have to trust that he can sometimes be loquacious. He's not proving his point now. ]
I don't want to rule anything out before I try it. That goes for things other than sex, too. I'd rather know than not. So I had the experience one way or another and could look back on it.
I'll remember what you said. And I'll tell him, if something doesn't work out.
[ Picking at the edge of his glove, Dal looks at Hyunki again. ] You're happy, right? Things happened at the right time for you?
We should try it. Nobody has anything to lose, and it's completely harmless, too. Bam might enjoy it.
[ Hyunki grins. He knows he talks a lot, it's one of these things of his, but in some ways, Dal reminds him of Adder. Adder is not exactly the most talkative, but he knows how to be when it matters.
Dal doesn't need to be loquacious now. What matters is for him to be when he's with Myung. ]
That's a good outlook. Even if the experience ends up being something you didn't enjoy, it's good to be able to have known it.
[ Hyunki is pretty sure he could not look happier if he tried. Well, that's a lie. If Adder was here with them, he probably would, but he also probably would be lost on him, and ignoring Dal, and that's just rude. ]
I'm very happy. Adder is perfect for me, and were I given the chance, I would not change a single thing. Would you?
I'm sure he would. I'm sure anyone would, wouldn't they? It would be a very interesting and- and valuable experience.
[ Dal thinks most things are interesting and valuable, but he does seem to be giving this an extra degree of thought. How personal powers and abilities can be to people is not something he's never considered. He thinks about it a lot, actually.
But how those things are shared, he's never been given much reason to think about too deeply. Because he's never had anything to share.
And that goes for his thoughts, too. He is indeed quiet and careful with the words he does use. Less so with Myung. And less so with a few people in this house now, too. ]
Yes, good to have known it. You can't know otherwise. [ He supposes some people can guess, but those are people who already have a broad variety of experiences.
Dal wouldn't mind being ignored if it meant Hyunki could be with his special person. He wouldn't mind a bit. ]
It sounds like he is good for you. Perfect, like you said. I think that's how I feel, too. There's nothing that should be different right now.
I think it is, too, but some people get freaked out by the idea of Trees being able to communicate.
[ If you'd asked Hyunki, he'd disagree that Dal doesn't have anything to share. He has plenty to share, just like everyone else in the world. One doesn't have to have magical powers to have something to share. ]
Exactly. That's how I'm trying to live, too.
[ That's sweet. He does hope Dal can meet Adder some day soon. They'd probably get along. Quietly. ]
He is. And it sounds like Myung is good for you, too. He's helping you know yourself better, and it seems like the most important thing, right now.
They do? [ Well, now you've stumped him again. ] They're alive just like you or I. [ His nose wrinkles slightly. ]
Doesn't seem that strange to me.
[ Dal would find that thought really kind. He'd have a pessimistic argument against it on hand, something about how he takes things, doesn't give them. But he might hold it back in Hyunki's presence. Perhaps. Hyunki is a person who makes him feel a little less rain cloudy.
That's a thing, really. ] Are you? [ Dal asks, eyes lightening up a little. It's not a smile, but it's adjacent to one somewhere.
Hyunki is right, they probably would get on. Quietly. ]
I think so. If I didn't know him, I don't think I'd know myself. Not as well as I've come to, anyway.
I guess it wouldn't have occurred to me. [ In the way that escalators wouldn't have occurred to him. Or pet names, at a certain point. Or a bunch of other elements of this world that seem self-evident to lots of people, but are completely novel experiences for Dal. ] I don't assume that because I can't understand something, that it isn't happening.
[ He doesn't have the luxury.
It's possible Dal's coming to understand that freedom might be his true gift. Not for himself, but for others. And through others, he might learn how to be free as well. ]
How do you prepare yourself to experience something you feel uneasy about? [ Dal asks, musing a little.
There's a thought in there somewhere. ]
I think when I got here, I didn't know what that meant. I wasn't happy and I wasn't unhappy. Now... yes, I think I am.
Right. Because it was a lot easier to think of things that were hard to explain as fiction? [ Dal understands this only theoretically. It's hard, as someone who is very, very difficult to explain.
Actually, his existence is apparently impossible to explain. ]
What if you don't know what the thing is? I'm not sure I understand my feelings well enough to pin down what might be causing them all the time. It's clearer when I'm with certain people.
Honestly? I don't know. I think so, in a way. How many of us have been thought of as fever dreams, or hallucinations? Probably many.
[ It must be worse for Dal, who doesn't even know what he is. If someone told him he was a hallucination, would he believe it? ]
Hmm. I wish I had an easy answer for you, but I think... you have to try, even if you're uneasy. Then, if you dislike the thing, or are uncomfortable with it, you know for sure.
I'm sure it's a lot, [ Dal says, nodding slowly. ] And I guess that's why it was so shocking. If something you didn't believe was true suddenly was...
[ He trails off, shrugging as best he can from his current position.
And let's just say Dal would be hard-pressed not to believe it if someone said that to him. He'd have to struggle with himself to make the argument it's not true. ]
Better to be certain than never know? [ He's going to have to think that one over, honestly. ] I do like to feel like I'm on steady ground. It helps.
There's a saying about that, I think? Something about hindsight. [ Dal shrugs, somewhat helplessly yet again.
He actually has no experience, in the most literal sense. It's hard for him to make judgement calls about things like this. There's no context for him. But he wants to keep talking about it, so he can get some perspective. ]
I'm figuring that out. With him, [ Dal says, cheeks turning a little pink. ]
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Date: 2018-12-03 05:44 am (UTC)[ It's just a skill he's picked up over the years, whether he's tried to do so or not. Some things are just that way, huh? Probably much like Hyunki's power has no doubt become second nature to him in a lot of ways.
Strange, because Dal doesn't actually have a lot of experience with his own abilities. ]
Yes. It's like that. You know things are right, even though you can't always put it into words.
And sometimes you can put it into words and it's... amazing. [ Dal gestures vaguely, because he's talking about being eloquent about his feelings, but it's hard to do that spontaneously.
Hyunki will just have to trust that he can sometimes be loquacious. He's not proving his point now. ]
I don't want to rule anything out before I try it. That goes for things other than sex, too. I'd rather know than not. So I had the experience one way or another and could look back on it.
I'll remember what you said. And I'll tell him, if something doesn't work out.
[ Picking at the edge of his glove, Dal looks at Hyunki again. ] You're happy, right? Things happened at the right time for you?
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Date: 2018-12-03 12:54 pm (UTC)[ Hyunki grins. He knows he talks a lot, it's one of these things of his, but in some ways, Dal reminds him of Adder. Adder is not exactly the most talkative, but he knows how to be when it matters.
Dal doesn't need to be loquacious now. What matters is for him to be when he's with Myung. ]
That's a good outlook. Even if the experience ends up being something you didn't enjoy, it's good to be able to have known it.
[ Hyunki is pretty sure he could not look happier if he tried. Well, that's a lie. If Adder was here with them, he probably would, but he also probably would be lost on him, and ignoring Dal, and that's just rude. ]
I'm very happy. Adder is perfect for me, and were I given the chance, I would not change a single thing. Would you?
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Date: 2018-12-05 04:24 pm (UTC)[ Dal thinks most things are interesting and valuable, but he does seem to be giving this an extra degree of thought. How personal powers and abilities can be to people is not something he's never considered. He thinks about it a lot, actually.
But how those things are shared, he's never been given much reason to think about too deeply. Because he's never had anything to share.
And that goes for his thoughts, too. He is indeed quiet and careful with the words he does use. Less so with Myung. And less so with a few people in this house now, too. ]
Yes, good to have known it. You can't know otherwise. [ He supposes some people can guess, but those are people who already have a broad variety of experiences.
Dal wouldn't mind being ignored if it meant Hyunki could be with his special person. He wouldn't mind a bit. ]
It sounds like he is good for you. Perfect, like you said. I think that's how I feel, too. There's nothing that should be different right now.
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Date: 2018-12-07 08:30 am (UTC)[ If you'd asked Hyunki, he'd disagree that Dal doesn't have anything to share. He has plenty to share, just like everyone else in the world. One doesn't have to have magical powers to have something to share. ]
Exactly. That's how I'm trying to live, too.
[ That's sweet. He does hope Dal can meet Adder some day soon. They'd probably get along. Quietly. ]
He is. And it sounds like Myung is good for you, too. He's helping you know yourself better, and it seems like the most important thing, right now.
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Date: 2018-12-10 04:28 pm (UTC)Doesn't seem that strange to me.
[ Dal would find that thought really kind. He'd have a pessimistic argument against it on hand, something about how he takes things, doesn't give them. But he might hold it back in Hyunki's presence. Perhaps. Hyunki is a person who makes him feel a little less rain cloudy.
That's a thing, really. ] Are you? [ Dal asks, eyes lightening up a little. It's not a smile, but it's adjacent to one somewhere.
Hyunki is right, they probably would get on. Quietly. ]
I think so. If I didn't know him, I don't think I'd know myself. Not as well as I've come to, anyway.
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Date: 2018-12-11 10:33 am (UTC)[ To Hyunki, it seems very much like Dal does give people things. Someone like Myung, who struggles with his power - what Dal gives him is freedom.
And that's just as important as any power. ]
Am I? Living this way? Yes. I am willing to experience everything at least once, even the things that scare me.
[ Hyunki smiles, running a hand through his own hair as he shifts to look at the ceiling. ]
Do you think you're happy?
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Date: 2018-12-11 04:19 pm (UTC)[ He doesn't have the luxury.
It's possible Dal's coming to understand that freedom might be his true gift. Not for himself, but for others. And through others, he might learn how to be free as well. ]
How do you prepare yourself to experience something you feel uneasy about? [ Dal asks, musing a little.
There's a thought in there somewhere. ]
I think when I got here, I didn't know what that meant. I wasn't happy and I wasn't unhappy. Now... yes, I think I am.
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Date: 2018-12-13 12:30 pm (UTC)[ It's a funny thing, to Hyunki. He can hardly believe that at all. How can a whole population be so willfully oblivious? ]
What are you uneasy about? It depends on the thing, I think.
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Date: 2018-12-13 05:20 pm (UTC)Actually, his existence is apparently impossible to explain. ]
What if you don't know what the thing is? I'm not sure I understand my feelings well enough to pin down what might be causing them all the time. It's clearer when I'm with certain people.
But not always.
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Date: 2018-12-17 12:43 pm (UTC)[ It must be worse for Dal, who doesn't even know what he is. If someone told him he was a hallucination, would he believe it? ]
Hmm. I wish I had an easy answer for you, but I think... you have to try, even if you're uneasy. Then, if you dislike the thing, or are uncomfortable with it, you know for sure.
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Date: 2018-12-18 04:53 am (UTC)[ He trails off, shrugging as best he can from his current position.
And let's just say Dal would be hard-pressed not to believe it if someone said that to him. He'd have to struggle with himself to make the argument it's not true. ]
Better to be certain than never know? [ He's going to have to think that one over, honestly. ] I do like to feel like I'm on steady ground. It helps.
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Date: 2018-12-18 12:23 pm (UTC)[ it's a touchy subject. One, often, better left alone. ]
Yes. It's my opinion, anyway. It hardly really matters, what you think is what matters. What you're comfortable with.
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Date: 2018-12-19 01:02 am (UTC)He actually has no experience, in the most literal sense. It's hard for him to make judgement calls about things like this. There's no context for him. But he wants to keep talking about it, so he can get some perspective. ]
I'm figuring that out. With him, [ Dal says, cheeks turning a little pink. ]