normally, the words wouldn't mean anything because human imitations meant nothing to him. but the titans changed things and he wondered how to fix what they stole. if only his sisters listened to him earlier about the titans and the measures they would take against all of them. to belittle someone invited them to show another side; to prove the falsehood of the words in question.
letting out a slow breath, he reached out a hand for hyunki, wanting to soothe the worry somehow. a physical connection might help even the tiniest bit. ]
It's not permanent. It cannot be. [ how could they change his very nature in a deeper way? they only dealt in parlor tricks and he just needed to find a way to undo it. likely, they buried his true nature or they ripped it out somehow. either option allowed for him to restore himself. ]
I just have to figure out how they did it and the way to undo what they did. The only good thing is my siblings will be facing similar. [ actually, he didn't know but he knew hyunki would worry about it. his siblings were always trying to kill him, though, so he understood the concern. ]
Looks like you're the stronger one between us now. Got to turn you on a little, Hyunkie. [ a nice subject change and mood shift there. ]
[ This wasn't normal. Nothing about this whole things that Adder was going through was normal for him, and it meant that it was nothing normal for Hyunki either. ]
Do you know what to do to reverse it?
[ Of course, he couldn't do it now, not until he was better, and that'd take a while for a human body. But he might still have an idea of what could be done to repair the damage, to make him the person he was supposed to be. Not that Hyunki loved him any less, and maybe - maybe he should say that.
With a tiny sigh, Hyunki laid a hand over Adder's chest, looking down at him. ]
If it is permanent, I just want you to know - it doesn't change anything. My feelings are the same, and they will stay the same.
[ Of course, it changed things. A human body would age and decay at the expected rhythm, not the one they were supposed to have. But Hyunki didn't want to worry about that, not now.
He knew Adder was joking to try and luighten the mood, but the words still made him frown for a moment. He didn't want to be the stronger, or more powerful one. He just wanted Adder, his Adder, to be fully who he was and wanted to be. Nothing else mattered.
But if Adder wanted to stop feeling so glum, then Hyunki would do his best to help. So he smiled, his hand moving up in a caress. ]
Like I need you to be human to boss you around. I've got you wrapped around my little finger anyway.
[ time stood still for deities because while it passed, it never really focused or made much of a dent. it existed almost outside of their inner realm. something others faced but they didn't in a deeper sense. never before had adder needed to worry about time but now things were suddenly different. what a thing to try and wrap his mind around.
looking up, he took in hyunki, every inch of him because he never thought for a while there he would see him again. at least, not in actuality. memories were always with him and no one would ever take them from him. ]
I'll work something out. [ easy words but they did little to ease the pain or the panic rushing through in equal measures. the former lesser because of hyunki's help. how much luck could one being have? ]
You do have a way about you. I cannot often deny it. [ hyunki never gave him reason to. ]
I cannot stay human. It would change too much. [ a flicker happened inside of him, though, of a growing burst of something. to exist without so much pressure and constant agony? to no longer be what held the universe together? he could have never dared to imagine it before but now the possibility grew within him. ]
I am feeling less terrible. Am I taking you away from anything important you need to attend to?
[ It was a difficult thing even for Hyunki to wrap his mind around, the idea that Adder was not a God anymore, at least not for now. He didn't take it for granted, ever, but there had undoubtedly been some comforts they both enjoyed due to Adder's status, the biggest of all their bond, and how they could always be assured of each other's safety through it.
Without it, Hyunki felt a little hollowed out. He knew, over time, that his love would plug the holes, but at this moment, it felt a little strange. When Adder moved a little, Hyunki leaned in, kissing his temple, eyes closing as he pressed thoughts and feelings into the gesture. He listened to Adder, thought over an answer, still holding him close and refusing to let go. ]
Would it be so bad? To be human?
[ Things would be different, yes. Things would change. For Hyunki, too. But he could imagine that being free of the work and the responsibilities Adder had would not necessarily be a bad thing. ] I'd love you the same, human or God.
[ It felt important to say. At the question, Hyunki looked at Adder, frowning and shaking his head. ]
There is nothing more important than you. You're not taking me away from anything, stop worrying about me.
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Date: 2019-09-15 12:50 am (UTC)normally, the words wouldn't mean anything because human imitations meant nothing to him. but the titans changed things and he wondered how to fix what they stole. if only his sisters listened to him earlier about the titans and the measures they would take against all of them. to belittle someone invited them to show another side; to prove the falsehood of the words in question.
letting out a slow breath, he reached out a hand for hyunki, wanting to soothe the worry somehow. a physical connection might help even the tiniest bit. ]
It's not permanent. It cannot be. [ how could they change his very nature in a deeper way? they only dealt in parlor tricks and he just needed to find a way to undo it. likely, they buried his true nature or they ripped it out somehow. either option allowed for him to restore himself. ]
I just have to figure out how they did it and the way to undo what they did. The only good thing is my siblings will be facing similar. [ actually, he didn't know but he knew hyunki would worry about it. his siblings were always trying to kill him, though, so he understood the concern. ]
Looks like you're the stronger one between us now. Got to turn you on a little, Hyunkie. [ a nice subject change and mood shift there. ]
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Date: 2019-09-17 10:52 am (UTC)Do you know what to do to reverse it?
[ Of course, he couldn't do it now, not until he was better, and that'd take a while for a human body. But he might still have an idea of what could be done to repair the damage, to make him the person he was supposed to be. Not that Hyunki loved him any less, and maybe - maybe he should say that.
With a tiny sigh, Hyunki laid a hand over Adder's chest, looking down at him. ]
If it is permanent, I just want you to know - it doesn't change anything. My feelings are the same, and they will stay the same.
[ Of course, it changed things. A human body would age and decay at the expected rhythm, not the one they were supposed to have. But Hyunki didn't want to worry about that, not now.
He knew Adder was joking to try and luighten the mood, but the words still made him frown for a moment. He didn't want to be the stronger, or more powerful one. He just wanted Adder, his Adder, to be fully who he was and wanted to be. Nothing else mattered.
But if Adder wanted to stop feeling so glum, then Hyunki would do his best to help. So he smiled, his hand moving up in a caress. ]
Like I need you to be human to boss you around. I've got you wrapped around my little finger anyway.
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Date: 2020-01-02 01:10 am (UTC)looking up, he took in hyunki, every inch of him because he never thought for a while there he would see him again. at least, not in actuality. memories were always with him and no one would ever take them from him. ]
I'll work something out. [ easy words but they did little to ease the pain or the panic rushing through in equal measures. the former lesser because of hyunki's help. how much luck could one being have? ]
You do have a way about you. I cannot often deny it. [ hyunki never gave him reason to. ]
I cannot stay human. It would change too much. [ a flicker happened inside of him, though, of a growing burst of something. to exist without so much pressure and constant agony? to no longer be what held the universe together? he could have never dared to imagine it before but now the possibility grew within him. ]
I am feeling less terrible. Am I taking you away from anything important you need to attend to?
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Date: 2020-01-03 08:53 am (UTC)Without it, Hyunki felt a little hollowed out. He knew, over time, that his love would plug the holes, but at this moment, it felt a little strange. When Adder moved a little, Hyunki leaned in, kissing his temple, eyes closing as he pressed thoughts and feelings into the gesture. He listened to Adder, thought over an answer, still holding him close and refusing to let go. ]
Would it be so bad? To be human?
[ Things would be different, yes. Things would change. For Hyunki, too. But he could imagine that being free of the work and the responsibilities Adder had would not necessarily be a bad thing. ] I'd love you the same, human or God.
[ It felt important to say. At the question, Hyunki looked at Adder, frowning and shaking his head. ]
There is nothing more important than you. You're not taking me away from anything, stop worrying about me.